すまなかった。

ちゃんと言えなさいで，
欲しいでしょう？いるでしょう？
だから言わないでは誰に知らない。
何もしないなら只あんた一人知ってるでどういうつもり？
勝手に市よを考えてるで言って，
それで良かったの？
“あほかい？！おまえ。”
本当に言えたい。
だって，史実だ。
心はそんなの冷たくないでしょう？
生きてるも。
氷みたいじゃないよ，このあほ！
何時までも自分を殺すの？
自分の心も自身が助けないで，他の誰を助けるの？
そう，英雄な人じゃない。
勇者も違う。
けど，それは理由か？
鬼，悪魔，魔王，神，天使，人間。
全部違うだろう。
だって，この貴様はあほだ。
普通のあほじゃない。
最低な愚か。
最低な存在だな。

世界一番消えない事

何とか言えなさい！
けど何も言えたくない…
なぜ？！そんなの嫌いの？憎いの？！
そうじゃないでもなぜだろうな…？
なぜ何も言えたくないかな…？

嫌いも好きじゃない。
どうでもいいな思いがアル。
だって，全部は普通すぎる。
平和すぎる。
何もないな世界に，何を言ってはいいの？
この世界の全てが普通と思う。

人間は海と見たい。
ゆっくりで世界を殺す。
何時か，血は地を汚す。
そして青い海も。
終わらない。
人間消えるまで終わらない。
でも後は何かしら…

”ナオ”は名前だけ

違う，そうじゃないけれど。
今探してる，その心を。
何処で行ったかな？
最初からいないの？
でもそれもそれがある。
だって，また新しいのを作るでもいいよ。
同じな物だから。
同じの者から。

守りたかったわ。
その笑顔，微笑，そして優しい。
何時も苦しいをあげたの私，
すまなかった。
なぜかな，私何時も苦しみだけが上げてできる。
涙は止まらない。
傷も治されない。
名前に“なお”があるでも。
それなのに，貴方の愛も人は私この悪魔の運命，命，生活から消えない。
大魔王，この私，貴方に優しいではできない。
幸せはも無理な事可も知れない，私に。
なぜ離さない？
なぜ逃げられない？
最後に，なぜ私の事は憎いにならないの？

勝ってない，今度。
自分にも貴方に負ける。
けど，この大魔王な私，
何も誰にも負けられない。
最強なあほ神と天使にも負けない。
絶対な存在になるのために。
だから今，まだ人間な私を殺す。
人殺しを呼んでもいい。
だって，事実だから。
現実，幻，夢も，人間な分を殺す。
でも神になりたくない。
馬鹿らしいで意味もない。
それで，これは今日まで。
地獄大魔王“明日も大”の日記。

For your inner stalker's desire

Hey, how's life
Everything's fine
And the plans are going well
Thank you
For asking
Thank you
For caring

Is how it sounds
How it would be in a business conversation
But if you'd just take down the details
And look at them,
If there are any

Because life's been the same
Wash and repeat it again
Day after day
Nothing is going to change
Just like yours

Walk around and take a look at others
Do they look any different
From yesterday
In any way

Take a look in the mirror
Can you find youself?
Is everything the same?
Like the past decade

So don't ever ask again
"How's life?"
"How's everything?"
"Is it fine?"

Because life's been the same
Wash and repeat it again
Day after day
Nothing is going to change
And I don't want to repeat myself
Like how they do
In business suits
Everyday
Just like how life does to you

Work

Beag ioc fein!

Sitting by the moonlight
All alone
Sipping beer at night
In the cold

I wish that it wasn't just words
To be real
It seems so simple
Yet so impossible

What is true
What I can feel
Is a needle going through
Another hole to be made
The pain is numbed
But it still feels so fucking good

Beer and moonlight
They don't seem to meet
Do they hate each other?
Or do they just hate me?

But that is fine
I'll have Adam and Eve
With some leaves
All crafted with lead

Abel and Cain
Soon to be born
With my hands
They will form

On paper,
Yes they all are
But truly
I can't care less

Eve looks like a Bishounen
If not a Haha-taipu
And this is so weeaboo
To be using such terms

Two today, a diet tomorrow.

Dear God, Their Lord.

Bring on the daylight
Let them shatter my corpse
I'm done walking the nights
It's time to say goodbye

The world is filled with us, anyways
What difference would it made,
If more faded away?

There's still billions to go through
So take your time on cleaning up
The world you had once loved but now hate

Everyone is dead
There is no more life apart you
I know that they are moving,
But still,
Their minds are the same as those
Six foot beneath the earth they walk

It would mark the end
When you are done
Killing everyone

And it would mark your first charity
To this world and humanity
The images you have created,
Mister narcist.

Do you hear your mommy?
Because I think I do
Certain that she called for you
"Time for lunch", she called out
"Wash your hands" she reminds you again

Dear child,
Maybe someday someone would discover
Your talent in making figures
Which look like you
And hire you

But now isn't time for work
Not so soon
Go indulge in your childhood

Play again tomorrow
The day after and forever
Till you mature.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Last before a pause

Everything seems to be moving to the sides
And I can't decide
My feelings on which to play

The fields are rough
And it all has just begun
I suppose, there is still time to idle on this cross

Events need to start replaying
Or the old give birth
To new ones

The flow of time just isn't stopping
Anywhere near

Creativity isn't flowing
All seems static
Like there's a dam
Which I'd like to condemn
For parching my lands

Life needs to be more entertaining
Don't you agree?
Does grass from another field seem more stale than yours?
Can you see?

Where are my catalysts?
Have you seen them, my eyes.
Do remember, where I last left them?

Because it's excruciating to watch
Traumatising to be in
And overwhelming to know
Once I overcome this.

OUTWRITE!

I don't know why
Then again I just might
But I can't seem to write
What my mind wants me to, tonight

Am I that incapable?
Just an ass in a well
My abilities are confined within this genre
I can't place any other emotions on the line

I've tried multiple times
But I can't seem to put those cheesy words together
And have them make as much sense
As my other phrases

I'd perhaps a mayhap
And deceive what you would perceive
Still I'd like to be able to
Put these words on paper
And make it seem like it's real

Alone I could say the phrase
Expanded it doesn't make sense to me
They won't link
No matter how hard I've tried
Maybe my best just isn't giving all its might

So I fight with what I can write
In this song I am making up tonight
To prove myself and to prove to all the odds I might face
That I am more than what they can expect

He wrote, about the skies and nights
About shakespears and how he would be
With every action that you could give

He said, that his love for you
Is pure and true
Like Romeo's for Juliet
Your life he wishes to take
His life is there for you to claim
Foolish is all I can say
And this is where I will truly begin

You have gone through the winding journey
From the top to reach these final words
That I'll say
Straight in your face
That I love you
With no strings attached
And I don't ask for anything in return

Wasn't that cheesy, was it now?
That is as much sense as I can see in those words
And form in a proper sentence
To give them out
And that is all I have for now.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
To prove myself against this :

How could you just fall from the sky tonight?
From the sky… When usually there’s only rain.
Well tonight it’s all about you baby.
How could this happen to such a loser like me?
Could this be a turn of events in my tangled life?
Could this all be a dream. Or one of my fantasies.
Part of life is realizing some things are untrue.
Why? Why will you stay?
Why will you go?
Where will you go now?
Can’t you see the confusion in my eyes?
In my eyes?
Will this be?
Can we make it now?
Well will it be?
You hold all the answers?
To all of my questions.
In life. To learn.
Where should I start?
From the beginning of a true romance.
From a beautiful and heartbreaking story.
About a boy and girl.
Named dear Romeo and fair Juliette.
Will this end the same as their story?
With bloodied knives and pain and destruction.
Can’t you tell me a love story where they end up together?
Will you kiss me? Here and now.
Or we could set sail to a more secluded spot.
We are here, we are here now.
You take me atop a mountaintop!
You take me atop a mountaintop.
With one kiss.
You send my brain spinning into mindless thought, and utterless gibber.
Wait one minute let me return the favour.
You have made me one happy man.
Will this be?
Can we make it now?
Well will it be?
You hold all the answers?
To all of my questions.
In life. To learn.
Where should I start?
Will you be my bride tonight?
Will you be my delicate bride tonight?
With your white veil covering your face.
You look like an angel from outer space.
Dressed in your ego I stand up tall.
Tall as the trees, Tall as the trees.
I watch your face and then you suddenly fall.
I see the pain and digression following all.
Just wait up one second it wont take me long to tell you I love you so.
I love you more then the rain in the sky as it tips off the mountains and onto your face
Your decisions are cracking at the seams.
I hope you make the right decisions for me.