Icarus

Your wings unable to lift you
Your weight slowly killing you
From above

Salvation takes the escape route
Fleeing from you
Taking on the fire escape plan
Run.

Crushed by gravity
Smashed right down to the earth
Naming yourself Lucifiel
Like all the others

To be different,
You took flight
But yet,
Your ending is still the same

Pathetic and easily crushed
Lies, you would simply believe
Now that you are down on the ground

Angry and sad
Your persistance is amazing
How you still try to stand out from everyone else
You have fallen in with

Gravity,
Corpses and the battered who lay atop solid ground
You drop just like a piece of junk
Into the pit
Joining all the other Icaruses

Your wings barenaked
They are but your arms
Your sole difference from them
Is your persistance

If that makes you happy
So be it
But you cannot be Lucifiel
Afterall,
You are Icarus

They may both be pseudo-beings
Fictional and mythical
But you are still Icarus

Fishing.

I will be waiting by the side
And watching
As you drown before my eyes

Your body afloat on this filth
Is that what you call water?
Well, whatever
Since your lifelessness is all that I need to see
To appease me

Having walked down a path of agony
Following the signs
Turning when they say so
Hoping to arrive at your final destination

Some are longer
Shorter or the same length
But not necessary the same width

Expectancy of your own winding and touring
Told by someone else who had a peek at it
Words constantly changing
Like how the world does too

Hence being timeless
I won't change, mentally
Even as age catches up with my body

Childish you may believe
Yet age, they are not just numbers
Simply because you are not immortal

For maturity with age and time
Innocence is taken in return
Losing without knowing

Running and hiding
From death ; from time
Not a wonder why you haven't time to think
About your own doings

Not getting what you want
This happiness you speak of
What everyone is wanting and pursuing
Are you just another one of them?
Hoping to bump into it one day
As your legs keep bringing you to different places
Your mind frantic and eyes looking psychotic

Blame, push it somewhere
Or take it all with you
Then what do you do with it?
Ignore, forget or forgive?
Whatever happened to remembering?

Domination, termination
To form your own nation
Extermination, condemnation
To form your perfection
For your satisfaction

Can you say not?
Without hesitation,
Without contradiction to your actions?

For so, I will wait
And watch as you drown
In your pool of lies and contradiction (no it isn't water although you may call it so)
Selfishness and domination
You are not mother nature
Neither a bird
Stop taking everything in or under you
You cannot fend off every last threat
There is only so much you can take
Before breaking
Killing everything you have taken

Until then, you will stay as a whole
Even after drowning
Floating, to protect your creation

すまなかった。

ちゃんと言えなさいで，
欲しいでしょう？いるでしょう？
だから言わないでは誰に知らない。
何もしないなら只あんた一人知ってるでどういうつもり？
勝手に市よを考えてるで言って，
それで良かったの？
“あほかい？！おまえ。”
本当に言えたい。
だって，史実だ。
心はそんなの冷たくないでしょう？
生きてるも。
氷みたいじゃないよ，このあほ！
何時までも自分を殺すの？
自分の心も自身が助けないで，他の誰を助けるの？
そう，英雄な人じゃない。
勇者も違う。
けど，それは理由か？
鬼，悪魔，魔王，神，天使，人間。
全部違うだろう。
だって，この貴様はあほだ。
普通のあほじゃない。
最低な愚か。
最低な存在だな。

世界一番消えない事

何とか言えなさい！
けど何も言えたくない…
なぜ？！そんなの嫌いの？憎いの？！
そうじゃないでもなぜだろうな…？
なぜ何も言えたくないかな…？

嫌いも好きじゃない。
どうでもいいな思いがアル。
だって，全部は普通すぎる。
平和すぎる。
何もないな世界に，何を言ってはいいの？
この世界の全てが普通と思う。

人間は海と見たい。
ゆっくりで世界を殺す。
何時か，血は地を汚す。
そして青い海も。
終わらない。
人間消えるまで終わらない。
でも後は何かしら…

”ナオ”は名前だけ

違う，そうじゃないけれど。
今探してる，その心を。
何処で行ったかな？
最初からいないの？
でもそれもそれがある。
だって，また新しいのを作るでもいいよ。
同じな物だから。
同じの者から。

守りたかったわ。
その笑顔，微笑，そして優しい。
何時も苦しいをあげたの私，
すまなかった。
なぜかな，私何時も苦しみだけが上げてできる。
涙は止まらない。
傷も治されない。
名前に“なお”があるでも。
それなのに，貴方の愛も人は私この悪魔の運命，命，生活から消えない。
大魔王，この私，貴方に優しいではできない。
幸せはも無理な事可も知れない，私に。
なぜ離さない？
なぜ逃げられない？
最後に，なぜ私の事は憎いにならないの？

勝ってない，今度。
自分にも貴方に負ける。
けど，この大魔王な私，
何も誰にも負けられない。
最強なあほ神と天使にも負けない。
絶対な存在になるのために。
だから今，まだ人間な私を殺す。
人殺しを呼んでもいい。
だって，事実だから。
現実，幻，夢も，人間な分を殺す。
でも神になりたくない。
馬鹿らしいで意味もない。
それで，これは今日まで。
地獄大魔王“明日も大”の日記。

For your inner stalker's desire

Hey, how's life
Everything's fine
And the plans are going well
Thank you
For asking
Thank you
For caring

Is how it sounds
How it would be in a business conversation
But if you'd just take down the details
And look at them,
If there are any

Because life's been the same
Wash and repeat it again
Day after day
Nothing is going to change
Just like yours

Walk around and take a look at others
Do they look any different
From yesterday
In any way

Take a look in the mirror
Can you find youself?
Is everything the same?
Like the past decade

So don't ever ask again
"How's life?"
"How's everything?"
"Is it fine?"

Because life's been the same
Wash and repeat it again
Day after day
Nothing is going to change
And I don't want to repeat myself
Like how they do
In business suits
Everyday
Just like how life does to you

Work

Beag ioc fein!

Sitting by the moonlight
All alone
Sipping beer at night
In the cold

I wish that it wasn't just words
To be real
It seems so simple
Yet so impossible

What is true
What I can feel
Is a needle going through
Another hole to be made
The pain is numbed
But it still feels so fucking good

Beer and moonlight
They don't seem to meet
Do they hate each other?
Or do they just hate me?

But that is fine
I'll have Adam and Eve
With some leaves
All crafted with lead

Abel and Cain
Soon to be born
With my hands
They will form

On paper,
Yes they all are
But truly
I can't care less

Eve looks like a Bishounen
If not a Haha-taipu
And this is so weeaboo
To be using such terms